I have been back in work about a month now and I’m finding it harder than I expected.
I was off work for some time with depression and so I’m not sure whether I am finding work harder because I’m out of practise or whether it is harder since my diagnosis.
I have been reading Donna William’s fantastic autobiography’s, Nobody Nowhere and Somebody Somewhere. http://blog.donnawilliams.net/
I have found them hard to read in places, mainly when she describes things that strike a chord with me, it has also made me feel incredibly lucky to have grown up in a loving family where I was considered normal and was encouraged to be myself.
Without my amazing family I may have been diagnosed earlier, however, like Donna, I may have been misdiagnosed or just written off.
Until 4 months ago I was worried I may be psychotic.
Getting diagnosed with Asperger’s has saved me. It has explained so much of my life experiences, and given me the courage to be me in this big scary world.
Letting the world see the real me isnt easy.
I feel very much like I am building myself up again from ground level, in work and at home. Using the information I have found out about Asperger’s to try and relearn my job in such a way that I can cope better than I did before. Trying to re-structure my life at home so that I don’t overwhelm myself but can also enjoy a full and rewarding social life.
I often wonder how others have been affected by their diagnosis. We may all be autistic but we are all also individuals. Our diagnosis does not describe us, it only shows where we may differ.
I would love to hear about any of your experiences in my comments section.